Wednesday, May 09, 2007

009:



-C U R R E N T-



CLOTHES: grey track pants and a black tank top

MOOD: awake

MUSIC: fall out boy

TASTE: nothing

MAKE-UP: none

HAIR: straight&up

ANNOYANCE: scholarships

SMELL: nothing?

FAVOURITE ARTIST: define artist

DESKTOP PICTURE: a random shot of my bedside table

FAVOURITE GROUP: olp, green day, goo goo dolls

BOOK YOURE READING: i'm not reading anything right now

CD IN PLAYER: goo goo dolls

DVD IN PLAYER: not hooked up

COLOUR OF TOENAILS: not painted

REFRESHMENT: nothing

WORRY: let's not touch this one



FAVORITE.



FOOD: i like pasta.

DRINK: i like tea

COLOUR: black

ALBUM: american idiot (green day) or dizzy up the girl(goo goo dolls)

SHOES: my converse

CANDY: i like starburst and skittles

ANIMAL: dogs

TV SHOW: television is vile, but i like jon stewart

MOVIE: what's eating gilbert grape

DANCE: uh?

SONG: creep - radiohead

VEGETABLE: carrots

FRUIT: i like strawberries and i like kiwi's

CARTOON: simpsons



ARE YOU.



UNDERSTANDING: sometimes

open-MINDED: generally

ARROGANT: yes

INSECURE: yes

INTERESTING: i have my moments

RANDOM: yes

HUNGRY: actually, no.

SMART: yes

MOODY: yes

CHILDISH: yes

HARD WORKING: yes

ORGANIZED: to a degree

HEALTHY: relatively

SHY: no

DIFFICULT: yes

ATTRACTIVE: no

BORED EASILY: i wouldn't be doing this if i wasn't.

MESSY: my room is.

THIRSTY: no

RESPONSIBLE: yes

OBSESSED: with what?

ANGRY: yes

SAD: yes

HAPPY: yes

HYPER: not really

TRUSTING: no

TALKATIVE: god, yes.

LEGAL: no



-W H O . D O . Y O U . W A N T T O.-



KILL: well.

SLAP: my brother. god, he is dumb.

GET REALLY WASTED WITH: no one, i don't drink

GET HIGH WITH: i don't do drugs either.

LOOK LIKE: no one

TALK TO OFFLINE: sandy or justin.

TALK TO ONLINE: justin.

MY NAME IS: tara lynn

IN THE MORNING I AM: sleeping through the alarm

ALL I NEED IS: too much for you to handle.

LOVE IS: dead.

IM AFRAID OF: being in love.

I DREAM ABOUT: things you can;t understand.



-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .



PICTURED YOUR CRUSH NAKED: no.

ACTUALLY SEEN YOUR CRUSH NAKED: haha no comment

BEEN IN LOVE: i am

CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: no

LIED: yes



-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-



COKE OR PEPSI: sprite.

FLOWERS OR CANDY: neither.

TALL OR SHORT: doesn't matter.





-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-



WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: how they carry themselves. then eyes.

LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: oh lord. kyle, i think.

WORST QUESTION TO ASK: how about worst thing to say?

MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: well, not the opposite sex. that would be justine and ainslie.

MAKES YOU SMILE: sandy

GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: that is so dumb.

WHO DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: justin. sandy. i suck?

HAS A CRUSH ON YOU: no one.

IS EASIEST TO TALK TO: i don't know.



-D O. Y O U .E V E R-



SIT ON THE INTERNET ALL NIGHT WAITING FOR THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE TO I.M. YOU? um no.

SAVE MSN CONVERSATIONS? if they seem important.

WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? no

CRIED BECAUSE OF SOMEONE SAYING SOMETHING TO YOU? yeah



-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-



FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? no

BEEN REJECTED? yes. god, yes. over and over and over again.

REJECTED SOMEONE? not that i know of.

USED SOMEONE? no

BEEN CHEATED ON? yes

DONE SOMETHING YOU REGRET? no.



-E X T R A S-



SMOKE CIGARETTES? no.

COULD YOU LIVE WITHOUT THE COMPUTER? yeah.

COLOUR YOUR HAIR? yes. i like being a brunette more than being a blond.

HABLA ESPANOL? no, je parler francais.

HOW MANY PEEPS ARE ON UR BUDDY LIST? too many

DRINK ALCOHOL? no

LIKE WATCHING SUNRISES OR SUNSETS? when i catch them.

WHAT HURTS THE MOST, PHYSICAL OR EMOTIONAL PAIN? emotional pain. by far.



-N U M B E R-



OF TIMES I HAVE HAD MY HEART BROKEN: once

OF HEARTS I HAVE BROKEN: none?

OF GUYS IVE KISSED (NOT COUNTING FAMILY): two.

OF GIRLS IVE KISSED (NOT COUNTING FAMILY): haha hayley.

OF CONTINENTS I HAVE LIVED IN: lived in one, visited two.

OF TIGHT FRIENDS: less than ten.

OF CDS THAT I OWN: um, significantly more than ten.

OF SCARS ON MY BODY: one from the operation and various small ones from being a tomboy.

OF THINGS IN MY PAST THAT I REGRET : nothing.





-Y O U R T H O U G H T S-



I KNOW: i am in love right now.

I WANT: it to be friday.

I HAVE: big plans.

I WISH: i could stop caring.

I HATE: being in love.

I FEAR: rejection

I HEAR: fall out boy

I SEARCH: for inspiration

I WONDER: if he thinks about me sometimes. i think about him.

I REGRET: nothing.

I LOVE: justin. whether it is ever anything? remains to be seen. but he is the only person who could do what he does and still not make me hate him, so i must love him a lot.

I ACHE: for you.

I CARE: too fucking much.

I ALWAYS: say the wrong things.

I AM NOT: foolish.

I DANCE: by myself in my room.

I SING: because i can.

I CRY: alone.

I DO NOT ALWAYS: show my true feelings

I FIGHT: with my heart all the time.

I WRITE: .

I WIN: sometimes.

I LOSE: sometimes.

I CONFUSE: love and hate.

I LISTEN: to my heart more than my head.

I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: at work.

I NEED: to sleep.

I AM HAPPY: sometimes.

I SHOULD HAVE: run.



Numbered Questions:



1. What is your favorite shade of blue? something dark.

2. When's the last time you bought something just because? um. when i was in europe.

3. What Ozzy lyric describes you best? i'm going off the rails on this crazy train.

4. When is the last time you went for a walk without a specific destination in mind? when sandy came over like two weeks ago.

5. Do you daydream? too much

6. What was your last daydream about? depends.

7. Ever won the lottery? no

8. How much did you get for your high school graduation? i haven't yet.

9. What was the thing you did that screwed up your life the most? decided to let people in.

10. Do you know what your chinese horoscope is? no

11. What is love really about? trust&happiness.

12. What's the most you ever made in a year? i made like seven thousand last year.

13. Do you have an online diary? yes.

14. What's the biggest pot you've won in poker? i haven't.

15. What's your most prized possesion? eh.

16. What Metallica lyric most describes your life? i don't listen to metallica

17. Ever been to Ozzfest? no

18. How many concerts have you been to? like none.

19. Which one was your favorite? see above. talent show was good at school, though.

20. What shade of purple most describes your feelings right now? dark.

21. Pick a shade of a color. Now describe it to me and name it. grey.

22. Sun tea or brewed tea? brewed

23. What's the most illegal thing you've done? nothing. i am lame.

24. Ever get busted by the cops? What for? no

25. What's under your bed? a bunch of shit that is not mine.

26. Vaccuum or dustbuster? vaccuum

27. How many people on your buddy list? too many

28. How many pair of rollerblades do/did you own? once

29. Ever wear out a cd? What was it? no

30. What's your favorite card game? crazy eights

31. Who is the most annoying person you've talked to on the phone? kristen

32. What's your favorite fast food meal? shut up i like macdonalds.

33. Where is the best restaurant you've ever eaten in at? the restaurant we ate at in spain.

34. Lamb chops or pork chops? neither

35. How many roses have you received/ given? a couple. for valentines.

36. When's the last time you mowed the lawn? i didn't

37. Washed your car? i don't

38. Ever have a tornado in your town? no

39. Did you see it? no

40. What state is your wardrobe in? organized disaster

41. What's the last article of clothing you bought? jeans in spain.

42. How many trash cans can you see right now? none

43. If you HAD to pick ONE song to listen to for the rest of your life, and that would be the only song you ever heard, what would it be? no

44. Ever heard of Shinedown? no

45. They rock, don't they?.

46. What size is your bed? small

47. When's the last time you had pigs in a blanket? .

48. Have you ever painted the ceilings in your home? no

49. What does your lawn furniture consist of? nothing right now

50. Ever live off of canned soup and ramen noodles for weeks at a time? yeah

51. What flavor of jelly are you? strawberry

52. Ever take any of those online personality quizzes? yeah

53. What musical group/artist do you love, but hide from other people? kalan porter.okay no i do not hide it.

54. What's on the floor in your bedroom? too many things

55. What is the first meal you remember eating? i.don't.know.

56. Ever been to a drive in? yes

57. What was the first movie you ever saw? like the lion king.

56. What's in your keepsake box/scrapbook? my life.

57. Descibe your first date. we went to the movies. lame, i know.

58. Would you recognize most of your classmates 5 years after graduation? maybe

59. What percentile of your class were you in? top ten percent.

60. When is the last time it rained while the sun was shining? not sure

61. What did you score on your SAT's? we don't write them.

62. When is the last time you saw a rainbow? in kyle's msn name.

63. Name your favorite artist/song from before 1990. meatloaf.

64. Do you think there should be new genre of music to encompass some of the newer rock performers out now? okay?

65. What colors are your lava lamp? don't have one : [

66. What's the strangest thing you've ever hung on the wall? i have election posters from last year on the wall?

67. When's the last time you did laundry? like forever ago.

68. How many hammers do you own? not sure.

69. Can you name everyplace you've ever had sex? yeah. because i haven't.

70. How many speakers are in your bedroom? four.

71. DVD or VHS? dvd

72. What's the most important thing you ever lost and never found again? my heart.

73. What forms of birth control have you used? none.

74. How many webpages have you created, and can u still find them all? none.

75. You have .30 in two coins. One of them is not a nickel. What are they? i don't, though.

76. What's your pet peeve when cleaning the house? i do not clean the house.

77. Do you use sponges or dishclothes when doing the dishes? dishcloth

78. How many people are in your family portrait? none. we don't take them.

79. How many times have you moved? once

80. Handcuffs or rope :D ? uh.

81. What season best describes your temprament? easily angered but passive.

82. What's the last thing you had to drink? fruit punch

83. Ever been so drunk you blacked out? no

84. What's your favorite song on the top twenty right now? uh.

85. What do your light fixtures look like? i.do not know.

86. How many jobs have you held for more than a month? one.

87. Ever punched a wall? yeah

88. When's the last time you really lost your temper? probably when arguing with justin.

89. How do you cope? lash out. say things i don't mean. then cry. then write.

90. What's your antidrug? writing.

91. Ever grown any plants before? What were they? no

92. Ever own a director chair? no but i sat in one in film class.

93. When is the last time you camped out? wow a long time ago.

94. Went swimming? last august at ryan's.

95. Went fishing? when i was a kid.

96. Oust or glade and why? don't care, i just know i put the tag on it.

97. Ever thought u(or a girlfriend) were pregnant, but it was a false alarm? no.

98. If 97 is yes, were you glad or sad? see above.

99. Do you have a red-eye mouse or one w/ a ball? ball.

100. What do your doorstops look like? um.

101. What was the last conversation you had w/ someone before they died? i don't know.

102. What do your drinking glasses look like? it's.glass.

103. How many bottles/containers are in your medicine cabinet? not many

104. How many funerals have you been to? one

105. How many states have you been to? none

106. What was the last bug you killed and what did you use? i.don't know.

107. What does your country need right now? stability.

108. Are you creative? yes

109. How so? i am a writer.

110. How many computers in your household? three and parts.

111. Ever help to solve a crime? yes.

112. Who is in the picture frame on your bedside table? cody, anna and i.

113. How many CD's does your player hold? one

114. What is one thing you'd like to do before you die? live.

115. Do the good die young or do they die before they have a chance to be bad? only the good die young.

116. What's your favorite totally cliche' saying? if you love someone, let them go. if they love you, they will come back to you.

117. Ever go out of your way to exact revenge on someone? not.exactly.

118. Was it worth it? kind of.

119. Ever get pulled over by the cops and get away without a ticket? no.

120. What's the weather like right now? dark.

121. What was your first legal alcoholic drink? uh.

122. Do you have a door/doorknob to your room? yes

123. Name one thing you regret? nothing.

124. Ever get published by one of those poetry groups? no

125. What's the furthest distance you've moved? i went to france and spain for ten days.

126. How many friends from high school/college do you still talk to? still there.

127. Where is your home/heart right now? my heart is beating from me.

128. What's the most expensive things your parents ever bought you? nothing. i buy for myself.

129. What's the most expensive thing you've bought? i buy things for myself.

130. How many hangers are in your closet? none. i do not have a closet.

131. If you died right now, would you feel cheated or happy? dead.

132. How many times did you intentionally start to commit suicide? none.

133. Ever spent the night in the "loony bin?" no

134. What's wrong w/ society? most things

135. How many crazy ice cream trucks in your area? .none.

136. What is your favorite cover song? everybody knows

137. Does the weather ever seem to reflect your mood eerily? yeah

138. Are you more pyschic than most people? no

139. What's your inspiration? myself

140. What's the longest relationship you've been in? it didn't even start and it probably won't end.

141. Did you ever drop out of school? no

142. Ever raise a child that wasn't your own for more than 3 months? no

143. What is your favorite piece of jewelry? i don't care

144. Ever help someone cheat on someone else? .not exactly.

145. Are you a cheater too? not exactly.

146. What is the last dessert type food you've eaten? um. i don't really know.

147. Fill in the blank: I'm a _aholic. shop

148. When's the last time you went to a hairdresser/salon? like a month or two ago.

149. Strangest medical procedure ever performed on you? nothing, really.

150. Do you own any appliances? um yeah

151. Do you have an "egg crate" on your bed? huh?

153. Last time you went to the laundry mat? i didn't.

154. How many hinges are on your front door? three

155. Happy your done ? yeah.